it’s been a log week of regrets. but not one that can’t be lived through.

my etiology requires deep thought, not rash judgement. and it requires that i listen and process a lot of advice. the cyst in the pituitary gland causes a fluctuation the basic process and use of b12 and other essential brain chemicals which drive the entire thought process. jumping to a conclusion or having insufficient recall is a factor of life. but it does come back. luckily i was always trained to remain calm and collected first and only react when pushed to an interolerable limit, and then with only enough to meet the opposing force, not to exceed. then back off.

think and troll deep, just like a submariner. i have survivial gear to maintain for months.

i’m dealing now with bare necessities planned over 2 years in advance.