it’s been a new weird rough day trying to reintegrate all the self help schemes, the ‘nos’, ‘yeses’ and in betweens. especially the in betweens. how do you ever argue with preferential treatment even when misguided ?

today I saw a video on st andrew’s divine liturgy about how caine’s best choice was to reconcile with his brother before giving sacrifice. now just how do you do that when youor real brother can’t be found and your other family is already in a state of warfare with you ?

you can’t get anywhere without asking or them offerring, but to take on those scales of balance is staggering…