Seems that rebuilding an Itunes library is a chore! Even with special software don’t ever try to rebuild the library by adding from a folder. Duplicates have to be deleted by hand and it can still pick up files that aren’t there, especially if you used removable storage!

And staying in one place has messed up my back bad!
Oh, don’t worry about pictures. They’ll be back soon.

Sorry for not posting sooner. Too many things going wrong. For instance how do you get dvi to hdmi or vga to hdmi. Or either to composite or component ? Or where do you go to legitimate sites to get TV episodes and movies ? Family Video down the street is on;y $1 per night per selection. Except watching many Netflix movies per month, I can’t find a better buy;

The day was full of christmas presents I bought myself so I’m going to take the rest of the day and play with my macbook and blackberry!

Why am I putting these thoughts online and not an article for a magazine, a diary or the ABTA ? I dunno.

With $1200 and taking back $150, I’m looking at lu ray players, external drives for my new MacBook while my XPS keeps blue screening. Though I do have a systemboard ordered for the XPS, I’ll have to pay to have it put in and cross my fingers to make sure that was the issue. So I wonder if I shouldn’t have just gotten a new desktop instead.

All I want is a notebook to take to class, use Itunes on (I have 60g of music I don’t want to lose from the dead XPS), type up my writings, and use adobe photoshop (elements) on. Not much. But I keep getting quoted quad processors while the one laptop I have running is SO SLOW!

I did order a new battery for the portable. $50! for two more hours of runtime without the adapter.

What does this all mean ? That while trying to ask the Lord for blessings in order to eat, I’m looking for exciting hardware and try to fix dead or dying items. Real prioritizing. Why?

Why can’t I give up my last four cigs per day, or the nicotene lozenges that cost a fortune.

Why can’t I see the cost for doctors for my back so I can get rid of this cane and stand without feeling my back is about to break ? Why do I feel like I have to distract myself?

Maybe because in fantasy land the realities of an ex, a daughter, bad health, lack of cash and other things go away.

That it’s a tall dark stormy day has nothing at all to do with this post.

I can’t find my friend Mark, and my back is so bad, I can’t sit with my friend Don for hours like I used to.

Money is tight. But I guess that’s all over the country right now. But I’m unable to go back to work, so I’m going to start writing and get my lawyer’s license finally. I’ll sell my car if I have to.

The biggest challenge is my computers and my nerves (physically).

Mom’s got dementia and I have to look after her for hours at a time.

And I’m bitching too much so I’ll go now

it’s been a new weird rough day trying to reintegrate all the self help schemes, the ‘nos’, ‘yeses’ and in betweens. especially the in betweens. how do you ever argue with preferential treatment even when misguided ?

today I saw a video on st andrew’s divine liturgy about how caine’s best choice was to reconcile with his brother before giving sacrifice. now just how do you do that when youor real brother can’t be found and your other family is already in a state of warfare with you ?

you can’t get anywhere without asking or them offerring, but to take on those scales of balance is staggering…

there’s only one of us left, guess who. one from cancer, two from abandonment. now the one behind the camera is left to depend on one in front.

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